I’ve always been the person that people spill their guts to. I don’t know what it is about me but even total strangers feel the need to fill me in on the latest gossip. Most of the time I don’t mind being that person, even I need to get things off my chest sometimes. To be honest most of the time I just tuck it neatly away in my memory bank most likely to be forgotten. Why do these strangers feel the need to tell me their life story, I’ll never know. But every once in a while, when you really listen, you can figure out who’s real and who’s not.
Friendship in my opinion should be without strings attached. At the same time, how do you maintain a friendship unless its give and take? Another question to ponder, what if you feel that the friendship is more take than give and at what point do you put your foot down? These are all questions on my mind lately.
I’m naturally a very kind and gentle person; don’t get me wrong I can get feisty when I need too, but for the most part I try to do whatever I can for my friends. A lot of the time I feel like I’m taken advantage of because I’m such a nice person. I just don’t like saying no to people.
Do you know that feeling of being pulled from every direction and that emotionally exhausted feeling you get? Well, that’s been my day to day since I’ve started rooming with my friend. I love her to death but I’m constantly pulled into her drama and always being asked to do things for her even though she’s perfectly able.
I’m not sure how to handle the situation, all I know is I’m tired. I can’t even muster up the energy to make this post grammatically correct or composed but I needed to get this off my chest before I explode. I want for once to be able to have a friend and just relax and chill and be listened to.
Maybe one day I’ll have that. Its just not looking like today’s my day and it makes me really, really sad.